Words. A very powerful tool to be used while expressing an emotion or an idea, a thought, basically an ability to communicate, to let others know what you think, give reasoning and come to a conclusion or an agreement, expressly. Words have the power to make or break a situation, a relationship and even a person himself. They get to you, these words that you hear, they affect you in ways you cannot quite understand and stay with you till your last breath. A constant reminder, of how you were perceived, whether what you said was understood, or was it distorted and thrown back on you or whether you kept saying something and no one heard you. Even though it is one of the most common facilitators of communication, it is the trickiest of all. For what you say and what is heard could be completely opposite. Just like an Asymptote, a straight line that continually approaches a given curve but does not meet it at any finite distance. Translation to English from Geometry, the words that you put together to construct a sentence so accurate that it would hit the nail in its head,  and yet it doesn’t quite get through to the other person, they hear what they want to hear.

When you lose a person it creates a vacuum. So what is your last memory with this person? Did you tell them how much you appreciated them or did you end things making the other feel worthless? Did you end things on a positive note or did hatred overpower all the love? Did you say everything you wanted to say or did you hold back for another time not knowing if you will ever get that chance you were counting on? Did you get that one final shot of letting someone know how you really feel and what difference they made to your life? We blind ourselves to the present moment, the moment we are in, the moment we are a part of. We register what we want to. How when you are convinced in your head someone is right, you overlook all the little mistakes and when someone is wrong to you, no good they do will ever help them get to the list of people who matter to you. How when you want to be with someone, all you can think of is being with them irrespective of them telling you they don’t share the same feelings. And when you don’t want to be with someone all you can do is find reasons to not be together ignoring all the reasons they show you to be with them. It is sad and funny, how the human brain and heart function. Spending your life deciphering right from wrong, truth from lie, what you want from what you don’t.

Remember the time you first met? How you’d ignore all the flaws or differences thinking it is a minor thing and you are mature enough to look past it! And now that you are close enough the same little things are big enough to cause havoc. We try to please everyone initially, everyone showing upfront their strong side, the side that can listen to anything and smile through everything, or laugh at every joke thrown our way, the side of ours or rather the mask that says you are alright and functioning well. When someone crosses the bridge and becomes a part of your inner circle, they begin to question you, not to ridicule you but out of curiosity, because you lowered the walls and let them take a peak into your real side. And as you keep lowering this wall , they either stick by you, support you for all you have been through and begin to really understand you or they begin to see what they perceive as a dark and complicated side, which to them could be selfish, irresponsible, immature or any word or characteristic they deem fit. With time how they perceive you from across the wall starts determining whether you want to break down the wall or build it back up. How does one figure out, whether this person will stick around and be a pillar for you to rely on or whether they’ll judge you and walk  all over you reckoning you unworthy. Question is how do you respond to the latter. Do you return the favour or do you understand and accept the differences and let go of the person with all due respect?

“Cause you never think that the last time is the last time. You think you have forever, but you don’t”, rightly said. You never know who is meant to stay and who intends to leave. Your paths might intersect again in life and you see a different side of this person. You have changed too. But what is it going to be? Do you give each other another chance, now that you have grown as a person, hopefully, or do you hit the flashback mode and go back to being who you were? Odds are you might pass on a forced smile and walk past each other. While you are at it, after growing into the person that you have become, would you change the last words you said to this person? Think about it, you have a chance to repair a relation gone sour,

What do you say?

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